31 Day Blog Challenge: Day 14 - What is in my handbag?

Okay I have never been much about carrying a hand bag or purse though I do like them because frankly, I am a container person! Anyways, I have a new purse/handbag that I love that I got on Little Black Bag. The one thing I carry besides my bankcard and drivers license is my nook. Its the one thing you can always find in my bag if its not beside me being read or waiting to be read. Other than that, I am not sure what you are suppose to put inside the bag. I can usually get by with just my card holder in my back pocket but that also means I am carrying my nook with me. So a handbag is nice in that it does help me to transport my nook from place to place. Asking me this question would be one of the most boring questions. I really have no clue what you are suppose to carry in your purse. I do have some pens, advil, biotin, keys and my cell phone. The bag itself is big enough to carry so much more. Occasionally place mail in it, but that just ends up annoying me. I do have another bag I carry grading in but again, still not very interesting, unless the kids get creative on answering their math questions.  I have asked others what they carry but still have no idea what I should do to improve the contents of my bag. Though if it was okay to carry around the stuff to make a margarita I would be the first to jump on that ban wagon! I do at times carry several bottles of water with me when we go out and about and I know I will want something to drink. lol

Maybe tomorrows topic will spark something interesting...or this bog could get just that much more boring....lol....peace out!

31 Day Blog Challenge: Day 13 - Favorite Quote

Well, of course I have more than one favorite quote. The one I like enough to tattoo on myself is, "Not all who wander are lost." JR Tolkein. I love this. I have always felt like I was one to wander from one place to another but I knew I would get where I wanted to be. So though I may seem lost to some, I don't feel lost but rather I take the scenic route. (:

Another favorite quote is EE Cummings, "I carry your heart, I carry it in my heart, wherever I go, you go." I just feel that this embodies what love is. When I hear it I think of those I love and choose to share my life with.

One more quote is "Well behaved women rarely make history." This just reminds that we don't have to necessarily live by the rules society has set for us to be memorable. Life is what we make it. This does not mean it gives permission t be rude or to break laws, either.


Okay, I am really not in the mood to blog. I am sure its because my nook, which has the voice of Eric Church, is begging me to turn it on and read. So, I am checking out and going to start reading. Peace out!

31 Day Blog Challenge: Day 12 - If I won the lottery...

Oh what a fun idea! If I won the lottery, the first thing I would do is thank GOD. What a blessing that would be in our lives. My next task would be to take some money and give it to my grandpa Charly. He has worked hard every day of his life and it would be cool to know that he could continue to do what he loves to bargain and create and not have any financial pressures (though I don't know his finances or if he is pressured). My next task would be to provide a retirement for both my parents and Jason's parents. Whether they chose to retire or not, but to give them money to take care of themselves. For all the gifts they have blessed our lives with I would want to be able to give them this back. The next would be to let Jason quit his job, buy his Harley and do whatever he has planned (on a budget! LOL) He has given me so much to be able to do what I have done. I would set up a trust fund for Evan. I would also want to find ways to add blessings to our siblings, nieces, and nephews lives.

Now I believe that you can give to God in many ways. That it doesn't always have to be through a church. I would first quit my job as a Math Teacher and actually work with a school district to be a volunteer math teacher. Have the chance to go in and work with kids and help them learn one of the skills they need to know and understand.

My next would be to start a foundation to help support a cure for Alzheimer's Disease and to support families who have a love one who is struggling with Alzheimer's. I really have an idea in my head and I would be able to the time and money backing to help support this cause. Even without the lottery, I hope that I am able to say this I have done before my days are done.

So, not sure if that is as exciting as someone else's would be but that would be the jist of mine. The main thing is I would want to be smart with the money and not spend it all and be back to where we are or even in a worse position.

Peace out for now ~

31 Day Blog Challenge: Day 11 - Most Proud Moment

Okay so I am a day late on starting this one, partly because I was in the mountains having fun with the family and was tired when we got home and second the topic is a tough one! My most proud moment....really moment....I need moments. I have several proud moments in my life but to name only one seems, impossible. But I will try but knowing myself, I won't limit it to only one (:

I would say that one of the moments I was the most proud was when I became a mom. I really don't think that there is any greater joy than having the knowledge and understanding of what it feels like to love another unconditionally. Just loving them because they exist. Not because they expressed love or kindness to you but just because they were in your arms. The amazing part is that feeling never goes away. It just grows throughout time. My son can truly make me happier than most. Not sure he realizes this, because I am his mom and I do get on to him. But sometimes I wonder if I get on to him because I feel that I have failed in some areas of my part of raising him. I have more joy in my heart for him but I also have the greatest fear that I may have not done my job right. I am very proud and blessed to be his mom. I love him more than words could express. I pray for him to be happy and to find his bliss. That he thinks things through before jumping into something that will change his life forever. He has given me so many things to be proud of that I am not sure he even realizes that I am that proud of him and that proud to be his mom. I truly see him as a gift that God has entrusted me with and even more so blessed me with. From the day I found out I was pregnant with him. from the time we saw him on the sonogram, when we decided his name, the day of his birth and to every day since I have lived a life of this proud moment. A moment that I believe will last my lifetime.

Now that was a little mushy but its true and not to knock the value of it I am done. But to catch up I will be posting Day 12, too.

31 Day Blog Challenge: Day 10 - First Celebrity Crush

OH! I love this topic!!! I have no doubt in my mind who my first celebrity crush is, funny thing is after 30 years its still the same one!! Anyone who knows me or meets me learns fairly quick that I am a major Rick Springfield fan. I use to think I was a fanatic but after going on the 4th and Final Rick Springfield & Friends Cruise I learned I have a healthy crush. I definitely know the difference between fanatic and major fan!

Here is a picture of my mom, Rick and myself last year on the cruise. This was the absolutely coolest experience I have had! The coolest part (aside from meeting Rick) was that I got to go with my mom. It was both of ours first cruise. Talk about making some amazing memories!

I remember when Jessie's Girl came and out and all of us girls on our street growing up wanted to be Jessie's Girl or Rick's girl. I thought (and still do) he was the best looking guy ever! To this day I have two of his albums in my classroom and by the time my students leave they know who he is and his music. Someone has to expose them to the good stuff! I tell my students that he was my Justin Bieber. I just never grew out of it. Some I know think I am crazy but thats okay. There is something about his music that has always made me happy and chills me out, instantly. I mean there are days that only Rick plays it helps to keep me balanced.

This picture says a lot. On the first night of the cruise I was fortunate to get my picture taken with Rick, I was  in total Awe. You can tell if you look at my eyes.

 It was shortly after this I realized the difference between a major fan and a fanatic. Fanatics will walk up to Rick and try to make out with him! They have very little, if any respect for his space. He walked around where there were hundreds of fans pulling on him, grabbing and groping him. I am sure by the end of the night he is not able to see with all the camera flashes. However, he does this for the fans. He is a very humble spirit and you see that right away. He is kind to everyone and not one time did you see him be rude to anyone. He truly appreciates that his fans love him and he loves his fans. His wife was on the cruise too. I got to meet her. I told her thank you for sharing her husband. It would take a very strong woman to be able to do what she has done.

Here are a few more pictures of the cruise. It was an awesome opportunity and I hope that one day I get to join in on another one of his fan trips!

 My amazing mom and Rick! He is much taller than I really had expected.

Above:  Rick rocking the stage at the opening concert for the cruise.\
Below: Rick and I. I am not tall I had on the highest heels I own that make me about 5'9-10".

 Above: This was his encore. He came out with sleep pants and his uggs on it. For 62 he looks AWESOME
Below: Again at the opening concert!

Below: This was the Beatles Tribute he played. It was a blast. Not a big Beatles fan but would be if it was Rick singing! lol

 Below: These pictures are not the greatest, but this is the concert with his first band, Zoot. Sadly, the lead singer, Darryl Cotton, lost his battle to cancer this year. What an experience to get to see this band in action after 40 years apart!

To end my picture sharing and my blog on my first celebrity crush. another very nice view (:

Laters <3 Peace <3

31 Day Blog Challenge: Day 9 - Tattoos and piercings

Tattoos and piercings...hmmm. Yea I have em. I will start with piercings. I have the normal ear piercings and at one point I had my ears pierced double. But my right side grew back so my right ear only has one piercing. Now my left has three. The double and when I was 14 (24 years ago) I had the top of my left ear pierced. It has never grown back. I have gone months if not a year without wearing an earring in it, too. As of piercings thats all I have. Though I really wanted to pierce my tongue. But since I have a heart murmur its not recommended to even have your teeth cleaned without taking high doses of antibiotic so I never ventured for the tongue. When I was younger I wanted to pierce my nose. My dad talked me out of that one.

Tattoos. I have four but want more. I would love to have a partial sleeve but tattoos are not really seen as the best thing to have when you are a teacher. My first tattoo is on my ass. It's a devils tail that is in the shape of a question mark with a halo. I got this to remind me that only I can decide if I am good or evil. The reason behind it was when I was the event planner for the city/chamber I went in front of our city council and a large portion of our bible thumping community to request permission to have beer and wine sold at a bike rally I was organizing. I had some people say some very mean things to me and get very personal. This was something that was expressed as wanted and I was the one who was given the job to fight for it and I did. FYI, I won and since then there have been several events in the community that now allows alcohol sales. During these meetings I dealt with a lot of people passing judgement on me and saying mean things. I was even laughed at by one of the local preachers. That stung but preachers are human and I have the power to choose not to enter his church, too. Anyways, the last day of the event, I went to dinner with friends and my husband. Afterwards, I went and got the tattoo. Not even a month later I had my second one on my right foot. I grew up wanting to be "Jessie's Girl" (you know the song by Rick Springfield, if not what a sad life you must live). Well I am Jason's girl so on my right foot I have it with flames and a Hawaiian flower. Tattoo number three came shortly after the second one. When my niece, K-bird (who was 4 at the time) saw my foot she grilled me about it not having any pink in it. So, my third tattoo is a heart with a cross and a ring. Stands for Love, Life and Loyalty. The heart is pink for my K-bird. My last tattoo has faded and really did not work out as planned. Its on the side of my left foot, part of it has faded and part is too dark and just didn't work the way it should have. It had scroll work and hibiscus flower and it says, "Not all who wander are lost." One of my favorite quotes. One day I will figure what to do to fix it but it was also the most painful of my tattoos too, so there has been no rush for it to be done. lol. I plan on a couple more tattoos. I want a peace sign that has the word veritas with it (The truth will bring you peace). I also would like a bird not sure what kind but I want  a bird. I am sure I could sit here and type all day talking of tattoos I want. But I won't its been a long day and I am worn out. So have a good one ~ <3 Peace <3 ~

31 Day Blog Challenge: Day 7 - An Old photo of me

So day 7 of the 31 day challenge! I have officially made it through one week! WOO HOO!!! Today's topic is to share an old photo. This is a picture of my mom and me when I was probably about 6 or 7 years old. It has been one of my most favorite pictures. I even keep it in our safe all locked up. I couldn't tell you exactly why its one of my favorite pictures it just is. Its a picture that makes me feel happy and reminds me of how happy life can be. I can't even tell you where the picture was taken. I think it might of been on a trip to Six Flags in Dallas but I am not sure. I just know that it makes me smile and reminds me that I had was blessed with a wonderful childhood and even better than that, parents that love me dearly, yesterday and today.

31 Day Blog Challenge: Day 7 - 10 Favorite Foods

So today's topic is 10 Favorite Foods. YUM! Well I am sure this will be fairly easy but I am going to be very specific about the foods I love. Some of which I am no longer able to eat (not because I can't, but because I can't - this will make sense in a few).

1.) One of my favorite foods is Potato Soup. Not just any potato soup but my granny's potato soup. She made the BEST potato soup. I have never been able to duplicate it but I am sure it's because it just doesn't have her touch. I miss her cooking. She also made the best stew, too! Oh and oatmeal cookies! I am sure I could go on and on, here. 

2.) Since I am on the soup thing one other favorite is Chicken Tortilla Soup from Casa Blanca in Ruidoso. It is absolutely wonderful! I plan on figuring out how to make it. As of now I can say that they use grilled chicken, onions, celery, and they add avocado to it but I think it is added at the end. Its warm but not mushy. Really one of the best things to eat in Ruidoso, NM.

3.) Now when my husband is cooking I absolutely LOVE his grilled veggies. He combines yellow squash, zucchini squash, red, green, yellow and orange bell peppers with mushrooms. He seasons them to perfection and grills them on the grill. I could eat this vegetable medley on baked potatoes, turkey burgers or anything else I could find. I usually will eat more veggies than anything else he grills.

4.) Jason also has mastered grilling portabella mushrooms. I have tried them at several restaurants but no one comes close to what he can do. Again, if he cooked like this all the time I would be a vegetarian (or something close). Though I really enjoy a nice grilled steak to go totally vegan.

5.) Now if I ask nicely, especially for my birthday, my mother-in-law will make me her green chile enchiladas. Which are amazing. She has taught me how to make them but I am pretty sure hers still taste way better than what I can produce!

6.) My mom is an amazing cook. She definitely knows her way around the kitchen. However, she cooks with her nose meaning she knows what to add and how much by using her sense of smell. Which I did not inherit. One of my favorite foods that she cooks is roast with mashed potatoes. There is nothing like eating her roast when you need that home cooked meal. It is one of the ultimate comfort food.

7.) Another favorite for me is Papa Murphy's Margarita chicken pizza (I think that's what its called). It has chicken, spinach, a cream sauce and feta cheese. It is one of the best tasting pizzas. However, I am the only one in our house who will eat it and I could eat the whole thing without thinking. Its not something I can get unless I have a plan on how I can share it with someone else.

8.) A new favorite lately is frozen yogurt, especially strawberry. I am very fond of the Healthy Choice frozen Greek Yogurt and the TCBY Frozen yogurt bars. Definitely worth trying. It is a great low calorie treat.

9.) For drinks my favorite drink is a nice margarita. In fact, I miss having my Margarita Fridays. The best day of the week. There is nothing like kicking back with a friend, enjoying a margarita and catching up or letting go of the past weeks stress. When it comes to a margarita I prefer a salt rim and it to be on the rocks. I also like the beer - a - rita. The best one of those is in Ruidoso at Lucy's. They make one that has a corona beer chaser which is awesome. Though the margarita itself is the size of 4 regular margaritas plus the beer so you either should plan to share or definitely have a designated driver! And I guess really a margarita isn't a food but hey if ya haven't eaten it could be considered the best dang appetizer!

10.) Now my last favorite food would anything with coconut. Not sure why I love coconut but I do. I love coconut cake, coconut ice cream, and coconut pie. I prefer coconut milk over regular milk and I absolutely love coconut water. So, coconut would definitely be one of my top ten favorites!

So these are my 10 favorite foods. Some I can enjoy often and some I will always wish I could enjoy once again. Life is too short not to find different foods to enjoy. The key is not to do it in an unhealthy way. Though I battle with being a stress eater. I work hard not to over do it except on a rare occasion. Enjoy life eat a little and savor the foods you love, I know I will!

31 Day Blog Challenge: Say 6 - Three Personality Traits I am Proud of

And on to day six. I am kicking butt at this! Probably not, but in my own world I am rocking this blog challenge. I imagine there are many more blogs that are more entertaining than this challenge I have chosen but this isn't about writing to impress for me its actually just making sure I take the time to write each day. This challenge has made me do that. Anyways on to the topic for today.

Three Personality Traits that I am proud of owning? Wow. My first thought is, "What is considered a personality trait?" So the teacher in me decided to Google it. I know what a geeky thing to do, but I don't want to get it wrong! (LOL) So, the site I looked at talked about asking your self two main questions, "What do I like?" and "What am I?" Interesting to think about. It goes on to express that traits are actions, attitudes and behaviors that we posses. Okay, so this gives me something to go on...I think.

I would say one trait that I am proud of is my ability to love the middle school aged kid. This is one of the hardest ages to love. They are literally a walking basket case full of raging hormones. However, I spend every day laughing and loving this age of child. Now don't get me wrong, there are students who push and test me all the time. I just have to remind myself that these are the ones that most often need more love or attention than they are getting from other places in their lives. One of the greatest gifts is to let a student know that they are cared for and that someone believes in them. Once they realize that you mean it they will do what they can to impress you. This is the most challenging of ages and most often its the age most want to ignore. But when you choose to ignore it or avoid it you are missing out on watching how this person is choosing who they will be. It may not be their finalized draft, but they are definitely testing out who they are and where they belong. This is the 2nd age that they need us the most. Having the patience and the willingness to just listen to them is a trait that I feel I am blessed to have.

My second trait that I am proud of is my loyalty. I am a loyal person. If I commit to you my love and friendship I am committed. I am in it for the long hall. I will do what I can, when I can to help in any manner that is possible. I will stand beside you. I will not let you stand in the rain alone. If I have the capability to help you then I want to do so. I do not want to stand on the sidelines and watch you struggle. Once I commit to being your friend I am there. However, I am usually there till you deem it unnecessary, which usually leaves me in a state of hurt and confusion. I am not one to walk out or give up.

My third trait that I am proud of is I don't give up easily if at all. Given a task I will give my all and do my best to make it succeed. I was not born with a "I can't" or "I don't know how" attitude. Once I have set my mind on something I will use every resource feasible to make sure that I accomplish the task before me. Once I have committed to something I usually don't back down. I will usually see it succeed. I don't really have a tolerance or an understanding of an attitude or mind set that is based on "I don't know how" or "I can't," those thoughts do not occur to me. When I finally give up on something it is not for the lack of trying, but usually I can't get the support to help me succeed or the pathways I have chosen are not leading me to the result. Typically I will look for help because I am not afraid to ask. I would rather ask than give up knowing I really never made much of an effort. That would not do my soul justice.

So those are three personality traits that I hold dear to my heart. Okay its late and I am tired! Til' tomorrow. Peace!

31 Day Blog Challenge: Day 5 - My Guilty Pleasure

Day 5 of the 31 Day Blog Challenge! Wow I am impressed that I have been keeping up with this challenge! Woohoo! Pat on the back for me! LOL!

So today's topic is My Guilty Pleasure. Oh gee! Am I suppose to only write about one or can I indulge in several of my guilty pleasures? I guess there are no rules and it didn't really say only one so I guess we will see where this blog goes!

I guess one of my guilty pleasures is buying books. It doesn't matter if they are on for my nook or ones that you can hold in your hands. I shop the sale racks, discounted and the books people have sold back. I buy them for myself and I buy them for my classroom (I teach math). I just love to buy books. The best thing about nook is they have a section that is free books. I can get my book fix by loading free books on my nook. This beats my buying books and hiding them under my side of the bed so I don't get caught. Definitely one of my "guilty" pleasures.

I would say recently I have been hooked on Little Black Bag. That is definitely a guilty pleasure! If your not familiar with the site, its where you spend $54.90 as a member to purchase an item and then are given 2 to 4 items to fill your bag. You then have one week to trade and bargain with others to create the ultimate bag. I did it the first time and LOVED it! I loved everything I got. Before I knew it I had bought another bag and a month, okay the truth a week had not gone by and I got another bag. I have done very well to keep myself from getting a new bag but so looking at getting one tomorrow since it will be the first! I really don't wear a lot of jewelry or change purses often enough to be a member but I like the trading and seeing what you can get it!

One more guilty pleasure is having a drink. Not that I feel guilty about drinking, I don't but it is one of those pleasures that I would partake in way more often if it didn't cause weight gain or headaches the following day. I love to enjoy a glass of wine, which my husbands jokes with me as meaning the bottle (not my fault a bottle only holds two of my glasses!) I am a tequila drinker too! Recently started to enjoy different flavors of tequila, my favorite so far is coconut tequila, YUM! I also like beer. I like trying new beers. I would be one of those people who would go on vacation to visit the wineries and breweries!

I really don't believe that we should feel guilty about anything. If your going to make the decision to do something then own it and enjoy it the best you can. Life is filled with too many regrets. I don't believe in living with the guilty of enjoying something. If you enjoy it, enjoy the heck out of it. You might keep from it for a little bit but until then...LIVE IT UP! Peace out!

31 Day Blog Challenge: Day 4 - My earliest childhood memory

Okay I have two that I am going to share because I am not sure which one happened first. However both are very vivid in my mind.

The first one involves going shopping with my granny at JC Penny's. This was back when JCP had those big glass display cases and they sold wedding dresses. I remember going in there and just being in awe looking at those dresses behind the cases. My granny took us shopping for dresses and shoes for church all the time. Anyways on this trip I remember seeing this BIG, WHITE BOX on the floor (probably a wedding dress box). I got excited and began to jump on it and have fun, until my granny got a hold of me and busted my butt in JCP. I learned that day that unlike some grannies mine would spank you! But she would love you after, too!

My other memory is of my dad getting his tattoo. I think I was around three. We were at the carnival, I think for the fair and rodeo. There was this little trailer that I think was red with a white roof. I remember being outside with my mom. When my dad finally came outside he had this thing on his arm that was covered up. It was his tattoo of a guy on a motorcycle. But as a kid I remember being impatient and wondering why he went in and came out with his arm changed. As far as I know its his one and only tattoo. I now have four, one I should have removed and the others I love. I love the other one, it just didn't work for long term.

Memories are funny. Typically we remember our own perception of that moment. For example, my dad use to race dirt track when I was little. I remember one time he won and they paid him with a bag of coins. I thought my dad was so awesome he won a bag of gold! All in our perception. probably why most people don't remember the same thing exactly very often. Either way....remember on~

31 Day Blog Challenge: Day 3 - Meaning of My Business Name

Okay! I can do this one! Ha! My business name is My Playful Memories. It all started with me wanting to create a bracelet with pictures of my family members. I wanted to do this using dominoes. I then began to use other game pieces like scrabble tiles and backgammon pieces. I love creating pieces that connect to a memory. It has so much more meaning to it. One of my favorite pieces was making  my nieces and nephews a memory game using family members instead of the usual cartoon characters. Therefore since my main material was game pieces and the idea was to use other people's memories, I named my business My Playful Memories. You can see some of my stuff at my website (which I suck at maintaining) www.myplayfulmemories.com or even on facebook!

31 Day Blogger Challenge: Day - 2: 20 facts about me

Twenty facts about me.

Oh this will be fun and interesting ( I think!?!)

1. I love birds. Seeing them fly, play in water or just listening to their song. It makes my heart smile.
2. I hate to be bored. I don't like not having something to do.
3. I don't leave home without my nook. Wherever I go, it goes with me :-)
4. I didn't start reading fiction until 6 years ago.
5. My all time favorite musician is Rick Springfield.
6. When I stay at a motel with a swimming pool I want to spend as much time as possible in the pool. I even will wake up early just to go swimming.
7. I truly believe that there is nothing I can't accomplish as long as I have the support of those around me.
8. I can put a pair of skates on and I am instantly transformed to my childhood.
9. If Jason would give me the go ahead I would join the local roller derby team.
10. I can be easily excited and distracted.
11. I have a dog, but I am not a dog person. My husband and kid are, but I do not have that gene. I love my dog, but he drives me batty more often than not.
12. I love teaching math.
13. I love working with data and trying to figure out new ways to apply it.
14. I am very competitive, even when I don't mean to be.
15. Once I set my mind on something I don't stop until I have achieved the desired result.
16. I have little patience for people who make no effort to improve themselves.
17. I have no time for drama nor do I want to be a part of anyone else's drama.
18. I went on my first date with Jason on May 18, 93, married him June 18, 94 and had Evan on July 18, 95.
19. I believe the happiest time of the day is 4:14 whether it is am or pm. No matter my mood. I will feel at peace and happy when the clock turns to 4:14. I think its because my birthday is on April 14 and its a friendly reminder from God that I am still alive and that I have a purpose.
20. I am most critical of myself and have a harder time accepting myself.

Okay, that was harder than I thought. But its done! Be back tomorrow!

31 day Blog Challenge: Day 1 - Introduction....

So I have decided to try this blogging thing out. So to start out I have decided I would do the 31 day blogging challenge. So day one is to introduce myself. So here we go (embrace yourself this could be wonderful or flat out boring, but it will be honest).

Let's face it introductions suck. First off your really not sure where to start, besides giving out the usually name, where your from and what you do. So very generic and very seldom does it really tell anyone who you really are. So, instead of telling you my name and what I do and all that bs I am going to introduce you to the raw me. The one few know or understand. Some that do know feel the need to try to correct it or fix it. Well, after 38 years it hasn't been corrected or fixed and I am okay with that, I apologize if your not. So, here we go! (Oh by the way I am just going to write I will correct some typing errors and some I won't because I am not perfect nor will I pretend to be, so if your one to get irritated at typos, misplaced or forgotten commas (my most common mistakes) get ready to get frustrated. Sorry, but not really its all part of me!)

I can be a very passionate person. Doesn't matter where or when or even whose around. My passion comes from within and I often allow it to flow freely. Some cannot handle that and that's okay with me. Your not gonna hurt my feelings and I don't need you to try to make it okay with me or others. What I mean by this is I can be a very loving and caring person, however, I can also become very passionate when I am irritated, upset or mad. So there is a very good chance that at some point I will either offend, upset, or set you off. I don't do this intentionally. But once I pop, I pop. My thoughts will come out exactly how I am thinking them, or at least I think they do. I don't need you to fix me or try to appease me. I definitely don't need your thoughts on how inappropriate I am being. I will come to that conclusion on my own but with my stubborn self if you choose to tell me it will set me off again and make we want to refuse to acknowledge what an ass I am being. In fact I will turn it on you being the ass. Its just how I am. I am able to keep things to myself and in my head for quite awhile before I voice my thoughts. So when I do begin to voice my concerns, or stress, its not new. I have been battling it within myself for awhile before I ever let anyone else know that I am concerned. I am this way with everything from loving to being irritated. I observe the situation before putting myself out there. I am okay with this, however, some are not, I am okay with that, too. But don't try to speak for me or try to make sense of me to someone you think I have offended. I don't need that. I need to be able to do that on my own and if you take that away from me I will never do it. Main reason is because you have given me something new to be irritated about.

My passion isn't only expressed through frustrations like it sounds up there but it is through seeing me deal with my frustrations and stress levels that you will probably decide if you like me or not. I just want you to know don't take it personal because in no way do I mean for you to do so. If I want it to be personal you would know because I would point blank tell you. But usually I will not go that route I will sort it out in my own head.

So I am passionate about my family and friends. Very much so. I would do anything for them that is physically, mentally or possible for me to do. I love those I surround myself with. I am very much a people person and don't do well to be left alone with my own thoughts to long. My imagination will run wild and I would drive a crazy person insane. This does not mean I can't handle being alone, I can, I just don't like it after a certain point. There are times I need to be alone. I need to be with my thoughts to sort them and decide if I am on the correct path for myself. But that doesn't last long. I need people. I need family and I need friends. When I don't have this I am totally out of my comfort zone because its back to the awkward lame introduction stuff. No really knowing anyone just faking it till you make it. I don't do well with that. Part of the reason is its kinda hard for me to tell if you can handle me. So I protect myself and go on guard to determine whether I think you can handle the true me. The one you are being introduced here. Just like most rejection is hard and if I can avoid it I will.

I am also passionate about many things. I love to learn new things. I love trying new stuff and going to new places. I find causes I believe it and become utterly passionate about it. It invades my brain and doesn't let go until I have sufficiently shown my passion for it. One cause I am passionate about and becoming more so is about Alzheimer Awareness. But I am sure I will be blogging about that soon enough. When I get involve, volunteer or commit to something I will give it my all. I will do my best to succeed. However, this is another way I tend to set others off. I don't do it intentionally and by far do I do it to get attention.Because honestly I could careless about myself. But if I am working with a group of people I lack the patience to sit back and wait for someone to finally give in or volunteer for a minor task. I know my limits and I do well to stay within them. But if I know I can get the job done I will step up to do it. But I believe that others see this as me trying to be in the spot light. Really I don't like that place, I just want what I am working for or with to succeed so I will jump in feet first, gloves on and ready to go. I lack the patience to sit back and wonder who will do a task that most often takes less than an hour to accomplish. I will give others a chance to speak up but if no one will and the job needs to be done, I will. Now saying this I want to point I know my own personal limits. I know when I am tapped out and can't handle any more. But I also know how to say "No" without feeling guilty, too. But this is a big piece of who I am. I don't sit back and wait for the action, I am the one in the front seat saying let's go!

This is a big piece of who I am. Many don't understand, some never get close enough for me to show them and others battle me over it. I am not sure I would change it about me because it does keep me grounded. I have my certain people that I can rebound my thoughts or that I can say exactly what I need in my own language and know that they will listen or offer their thoughts but they can handle the raw me. The one many never get to see. They may experience part of it, heck they may be put off by it. But in almost every instance I never intentionally try to hurt someone (that would break my heart and spirit) but when I am frustrated I can hit a breaking point. I can also be very loving and caring that I may seem overbearing and I don't mean to, I just want what is best for you. If you ask me I will more than likely tell you what I think and if I don't my face will give you the answer before my words ever could.

I could tell you the stuff most already know or would learn in five minutes of conversations. But this here is what you would need to know about me so that you can actually gain understanding about me. I am a passionate person. My passions run extremely high, whether its love or frustration. But its usually the frustration or the uncertainty, or my pulling in to determine if my surrounds can handle me, that puts people off or worse sets them off. Which is, usually, never, my intentions.

This is my introduction. May be wordy, full of typos and totally random but if you were to take the chance to know me I am sure this is what you would learn about me....quickly. Here's to day one.....bring on day two!